Friday, July 15, 2011
Throughout my life, I had lost some very good friends due to certain grounds. Maybe best friend is not that important to certain people but for me, I always need friends. I think the universe know that I hate being lonely doing everything by myself. It reminds me of my high school year when my life does not includes lots of best friend. During that time, I only meet my friends during school or tuition. Yes, sometime I went out with couple of friends to catch a movie or eat at MacDonald but most of the time I spend at home, my bedroom to be specific. Alone.
The age 14 to 17 was the hardest part of my life. Confronting my parents’ divorce and my dad new marriage at that time is not easy for me. I still remember that I live a lie when I’m in high school. None of my friend at school knows about my parent situation. At school, I act as if nothing major happened in my life, while at home I seldom enjoyed sitting alone in my room crying while listen to jazz music that calm me down.
At that period of life, my best friend is too far from me. I don’t blame him because he’s in KL and I in Malacca. When I’m in KL, he moves to Brussels with his family. If I know he’ll die when we’re 19, I will try harder to spend more time with him.
Then, there is a best friend that when I first met him, I thought we’re surely matched by god himself. We’ve the same interest in almost everything especially music and movie. Sometimes, we magically sang the same song in our heart. With him, I felt that I can share almost everything. Until one day I found out instead of recognising me as a best friend that always support and encourage him to succeed, he sees me as a rival. I never meant to be on his way. If he think (ever) that I am here to stop him from achieving whatever he want to achieve, I just want to that say I can’t help being good at being myself. I don’t want to be anybody rival. If anybody thinks that I might stand on their way, and then let me move aside so that you can move further.
There’s also one girl that I consider my best friend just because she seem to always understand me without acting like she care at all. I have to admit that at the beginning of the friendship, I want to be her friend because I had a huge crush on her. Lucky for me, while I didn’t get her as a lover, I got a real best friend.
At this point of my life, I just want to be happy and cherish my life as great as I can. I just want to say that I love my friends, best friends, bffs and soulmate. If you hate them, I can’t do anything than ignoring you. As simple as that, I am loyal.
p/s: I don't feature all my best friend in this post. I only mention three of them. Maybe for now at least.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Hi there! It’s been a while since my last post. I don’t know why but I don’t really feel like writing nowadays. I’ve lost my magic I think. (Sigh). Not only this blog, I can’t remember when the last time I wrote a song is or even write a short story like I used to do daily. Since I am currently on stuck mode, there are few things that I want to share for all my friends that read my blog (I know, only a few. But I don’t care or mind). J
Firstly, is about these siblings Gamaliel and Audrey. I think they have fantastic voices and talent. Thanks to my friend Ririen (sidoko.blogspot.com) for the info about them. I’m so mesmerized with their rendition of some famous song. Especially a cover for Lady Gaga’s Telephone. Here u go! J
That’s all for now, will update more later! Muaaah! Xoxo.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Saturday, April 2, 2011
It‘s April already? Sigh! Time seriously flies so fast. I just want to update what colours my life around this 4 months of 2011. It’s been a wonderful year so far. I had lots of fun, or maybe too much fun to handle. Hahaha. I discovered that my love for shades have grown tremendously (hahaha what a surprise!). I just love all the colours they offer. The shades colour my life. Whoa, as if the shades are so important. To me, it is! So, just bare with it. Hahaha.
Other than that, this 3 person really colours my life in 2011. I spent almost everyday with them or at least one of them. I heart 3 of you so much! ;) We spent our day by eating together, window shopping, watching movies, karaoke and most of the time, playing cards. Poker card and monopoly deal to be specific. Thank you friends!
Something that keeps running through my head this year is what job that I really want to pursue. This give headache. I really don’t know! People keep pushing and asking me about this but seriously I am clueless myself. “You’re 26 this year and you haven’t figured it out?” This is a silly statement. Some people still hadn’t figure it out when they in their 50s. There just go with it, doing something that they don’t really like. I am a very passionate person and i hate sticking on what other people want me to be. I want to be the person that i want to be. Life is so wonderful and full of colours so let me cherish my life on my own way.
p/s: Go and watch this movie by Osman Ali, CUN! My best friend Nadiya Nisaa aka Ica is in there with her tremendous talent as Manis. This is a fun malay movie I promise! ;)
Monday, February 28, 2011
Nina Sayers is beautiful, vulnerable, sexually naive and susceptible to mental illness. To play the role of a lifetime, Nina must develop deep into her own dark side. As her hallucinations and anxiety attacks escalate in tandem with her progress in rehearsal, artistic breakthrough fuses with nervous breakdown. This is a movie about fear of penetration, fear of your body, fear of being supplanted in the affections of a powerful man, love of perfection, love of dance, and perhaps most importantly of all, passionate and overwhelming hatred of your mother.
The young Aronofsky made three startling, status-quo-smashing movies: Pi, Requiem for a Dream and The Fountain. Whatever glory he won for The Wrestler, that film was lazy visually and clichéd in its telling. Black Swan is much more sophisticated, using The Wrestler's stalking camera and grainy images but bringing sensational dexterity to the dance scenes.