Saturday, August 20, 2011

Friday, July 15, 2011

i need to talk

Throughout my life, I had lost some very good friends due to certain grounds. Maybe best friend is not that important to certain people but for me, I always need friends. I think the universe know that I hate being lonely doing everything by myself. It reminds me of my high school year when my life does not includes lots of best friend. During that time, I only meet my friends during school or tuition. Yes, sometime I went out with couple of friends to catch a movie or eat at MacDonald but most of the time I spend at home, my bedroom to be specific. Alone.

The age 14 to 17 was the hardest part of my life. Confronting my parents’ divorce and my dad new marriage at that time is not easy for me. I still remember that I live a lie when I’m in high school. None of my friend at school knows about my parent situation. At school, I act as if nothing major happened in my life, while at home I seldom enjoyed sitting alone in my room crying while listen to jazz music that calm me down.

At that period of life, my best friend is too far from me. I don’t blame him because he’s in KL and I in Malacca. When I’m in KL, he moves to Brussels with his family. If I know he’ll die when we’re 19, I will try harder to spend more time with him.

Then, there is a best friend that when I first met him, I thought we’re surely matched by god himself. We’ve the same interest in almost everything especially music and movie. Sometimes, we magically sang the same song in our heart. With him, I felt that I can share almost everything. Until one day I found out instead of recognising me as a best friend that always support and encourage him to succeed, he sees me as a rival. I never meant to be on his way. If he think (ever) that I am here to stop him from achieving whatever he want to achieve, I just want to that say I can’t help being good at being myself. I don’t want to be anybody rival. If anybody thinks that I might stand on their way, and then let me move aside so that you can move further.

There’s also one girl that I consider my best friend just because she seem to always understand me without acting like she care at all. I have to admit that at the beginning of the friendship, I want to be her friend because I had a huge crush on her. Lucky for me, while I didn’t get her as a lover, I got a real best friend.

At this point of my life, I just want to be happy and cherish my life as great as I can. I just want to say that I love my friends, best friends, bffs and soulmate. If you hate them, I can’t do anything than ignoring you. As simple as that, I am loyal.

p/s: I don't feature all my best friend in this post. I only mention three of them. Maybe for now at least.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

this is it...

this is it.
i love u and no one else.
this is it.
u walk me through shine and rain.
this is it.
we will walk down this love lane.
building memories that's not plain.

this is it. i. u. and love.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

something i want to share...

Hi there! It’s been a while since my last post. I don’t know why but I don’t really feel like writing nowadays. I’ve lost my magic I think. (Sigh). Not only this blog, I can’t remember when the last time I wrote a song is or even write a short story like I used to do daily. Since I am currently on stuck mode, there are few things that I want to share for all my friends that read my blog (I know, only a few. But I don’t care or mind). J

Firstly, is about these siblings Gamaliel and Audrey. I think they have fantastic voices and talent. Thanks to my friend Ririen ( for the info about them. I’m so mesmerized with their rendition of some famous song. Especially a cover for Lady Gaga’s Telephone. Here u go! J

That’s all for now, will update more later! Muaaah! Xoxo.

Friday, April 29, 2011

POP is cool!



I get annoyed sometime for some people that thinks pop is so uncool.. Don't you realise that pop rules the world? If you don't get it (something that the rest of the world love) for example Justin Bieber (just an example) u should put this in several ways.

*maybe I'm outdated.
*maybe I'm OLD.
*I don't get it, but if the rest of the world got it, I'm gonna be ok with it.

If you don't like something or just don't get it, why bother slashing things up. People just wanna have fun. Everyone have their own way of having fun. Some people love jazz, some are so into R&B, others maybe love rocking but most people love pop. Just deal with it! POP rules!

p/s: uurrgh! I am annoyed! seriously!

Saturday, April 2, 2011


It‘s April already? Sigh! Time seriously flies so fast. I just want to update what colours my life around this 4 months of 2011. It’s been a wonderful year so far. I had lots of fun, or maybe too much fun to handle. Hahaha. I discovered that my love for shades have grown tremendously (hahaha what a surprise!). I just love all the colours they offer. The shades colour my life. Whoa, as if the shades are so important. To me, it is! So, just bare with it. Hahaha.

Other than that, this 3 person really colours my life in 2011. I spent almost everyday with them or at least one of them. I heart 3 of you so much! ;) We spent our day by eating together, window shopping, watching movies, karaoke and most of the time, playing cards. Poker card and monopoly deal to be specific. Thank you friends!

Something that keeps running through my head this year is what job that I really want to pursue. This give headache. I really don’t know! People keep pushing and asking me about this but seriously I am clueless myself. “You’re 26 this year and you haven’t figured it out?” This is a silly statement. Some people still hadn’t figure it out when they in their 50s. There just go with it, doing something that they don’t really like. I am a very passionate person and i hate sticking on what other people want me to be. I want to be the person that i want to be. Life is so wonderful and full of colours so let me cherish my life on my own way.

p/s: Go and watch this movie by Osman Ali, CUN! My best friend Nadiya Nisaa aka Ica is in there with her tremendous talent as Manis. This is a fun malay movie I promise! ;)

Monday, February 28, 2011

Black Swan ~ it's all about duality. black and white.

Like a ballet performance, Darren Aronofsky's Black Swan begins with a showy opening act and closes with a dramatic finale. What happens in between, as we watch a ballerina named Nina Sayers (Natalie Portman) lose herself in her new role as the Swan Queen in a New York City ballet production of Swan Lake. I have high expectation for this film since all the reviews that I read before watching this film were extraordinary. For me, before you watch this film, it is best for you to switch off the more sensible side of your mind, along with any idea that you’re going to experience a documentary-style portrait of the world of ballet. This film will really works if you let yourself be swirled up just like the main character Nina Sayers in a storm of hysteria, paranoia and tears. It’s too impulsive and emotional to be picked apart at the level of logic and too ludicrous to exist in a world other than its own. It is huge fun, but only if you’re willing to swallow all the art-form agenda.

Nina Sayers is beautiful, vulnerable, sexually naive and susceptible to mental illness. To play the role of a lifetime, Nina must develop deep into her own dark side. As her hallucinations and anxiety attacks escalate in tandem with her progress in rehearsal, artistic breakthrough fuses with nervous breakdown. This is a movie about fear of penetration, fear of your body, fear of being supplanted in the affections of a powerful man, love of perfection, love of dance, and perhaps most importantly of all, passionate and overwhelming hatred of your mother.

The camera works of this film is beyond words. My favorite scene will be the club scene which was made and edited beautifully. The last half hour of this movie also is extraordinary. This film let us into a journey of hysterical mind of Nina Sayers.

The young Aronofsky made three startling, status-quo-smashing movies: Pi, Requiem for a Dream and The Fountain. Whatever glory he won for The Wrestler, that film was lazy visually and clich├ęd in its telling. Black Swan is much more sophisticated, using The Wrestler's stalking camera and grainy images but bringing sensational dexterity to the dance scenes.

Black Swan is all about duality, and the same can be said for how you perceive the film. Those who can chalk up the overwrought suspense and indulgent sexual scenarios to Aronofsky's creative vision will soak up Portman's performance, the drama, and the many layers of psychological issues. Those that take the film more literally may have a hard time with the one-dimensional characters (even Portman's superb performance feels like it could go even deeper), the pointed symbolism, and the cliches. Whichever side you land on, I can guarantee that Black Swan will leave you with plenty to think about and talk about for days to come.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

terima kasih cinta

Last sunday I got the chance to watch Terima Kasih Cinta play at Istana Budaya. It's been a long time since the last time I watch a play. Happy because it's a good one. I am excited to watch this play because it was directed by one of Malaysia's finest choreographer, Pat Ibrahim.

What I can say is, this play pay my expectation. It's also a good adaptation from the movie. Kabir Bhatiar should be proud of this presentation by Pat. I totally love the cast line up. Everyone give their best both in acting and singing since this is a musical play.

My attention is more to Nadia Aqilah as Arianna, since I am mesmerize with her voice and she's a great actor too. If people give her more oppoturnity, she can be a big star. Deja Moss as Dyan also is interesting! O what a performance by her! ;)

Friday, February 18, 2011

2011 ~ life will begins!

Langithijau is back!

Yes i know, u miss me alot right? hihi. Don't u worry. After a year past without a single post, I'll activated myself. More interesting story will come soon. Promise! ;)

areed razman