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happy bday to me!

rapuh

sorry guys. i have no moods to update this blog for this period of time. kinda busy with study and work. so now, lets read one of my fav poem written by ME! hihihi. slmt hr ry! =)


ku lihat dia ada di sana.

kabur.

berkecai jadi serpihan debu lalu hilang dalam waktu




ku pegang tirai yang menutupinya.

rapuh.

bertaburan menjadi serbuk-serbuk halus

lalu hilang di sebalik kabus jingga




ku renung jari jemariku.

kaku.

dikotori debu yang tak ingin pergi

terus melekat ingin ke hati




jawapan-jawapan yang aku dengar bukan sabda

dan dewa pula tak muncul tiba

apa yang aku percaya

hanya hati bisa kuatkan

Yasmin Ahmad

Since the day she gone, my tears still there every night before I lay my head to sleep. She's such an angel in my heart. She's inspire me so much through her works. Her films are artworks that stand on its own level (even though she always said that her films is not art films).

I still remember the first time I met her. The glow in her smile makes me believe that she's as wonderful as I imagine. It is true when people say that we can see great soul through a person's eyes. I don't know her personally but when I am looking at her at the first time, it is as if I know her all of my life. She speaks with her works and it came through to me as an inspiration, entertainment, advice and good example. All at the same time.

Years ago, I wrote this post called ' 2 Pakcik, Amani and Muallaf'. She immediately email me as soon as she read it. She told me that she love it and want us to meet so that she can arrange some time for me to watch muallaf. But sadly, her busy schedule makes the plan been postponed for several times. Till now I still haven't watch that film which the trailer already makes my heart shiver. But I am glad that I got the chance to meet this wonderful person and share thoughts with her. She also like my shortfilm Dia yang Sepi.

Now, she's gone to the after life. But she will always stay in hearts not just mine but everybody that have been inspired by her wonderful works and persona.

"Ya Allah, tempatkanlah Yasmin Ahmad bersama-sama orang yang beriman. Amin." Al Fatihah.

Al-Fatihah

I got sms from my friend shaza and yusuf told me that she just passed away (now is 12.20 am, July 26 2009). I don't want to cry but I can't control the tears. This is one of the saddest day in my entire life. I am heartbroken. I am sad. But I pray that Allah will bless her.

YASMIN AHMAD

"a filmmaker, a storyteller, an idol, an inspiration"

beautiful voices

O they have great voices! I love them! So much, it's almost envy. I wish I could have their voice.

This is Joshua Radin. Yes, the guy that sing at Ellen Degeneres' Wedding.
check out his webbie joshuaradin.com



and here we have Alex Serra singing my new favourite song, cry me a river. o Gosh!



click here to see more of Alex Serra

the death of a king

Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)

"The world has lost a great performer and entertainer. Though he's normally misunderstood, we the fans felt close to him. His songs, lyrics, moves, videos and ideology are held closely dear in our hearts and minds. A legend, he is always be..." -Helmi Deris (via sms)

Goodbye ordinary MJ, Hello Ultimate Legend of POP! =)

We will always love you.

darkest shade of lights

pix by =monstermagnet

in the darkest shade i saw the light
shimmer without a fight
i pray for the summer to tear me apart
but winter kept coming over into my heart

fragile in the darkest shade of lights
i lay down and try not to hide
walking down the misery lane
throttling the feelings of pain

looking at the sprinkles of time
i could hear the songs and chime
till the hours and time stood still
realise singing without my will.

♥areed razman♥

pasta party

Sardinia seafood pasta by yusuf. yummy! =)

I have a blast weekend last week. I went to my friend, Yusuf's house and we cook pasta together. There's only two of us but we cooked 5 pasta recipes. It's a total pasta party. hahaha. Yusuf just came back from backpaking in Italy last month, so he's so into pasta now. Lucky for him, I am forever a pasta lover.

This week is gonna be very hectic for me. I have to submit 13 episodes script treatment for a DIY show by to morrow! 13???!! and each episode have 3 segments. (sigh!) I have to be strong. On wednesday, I'll have a meeting at RTM discussing on the script. On Thursday and Friday, work as usual. On Saturday it's my master registration day. On maonday next week, I have to cook on a TV show call "apa apa aje". I'll show them how to make my famous Baked macaroni with mushroom. Make sure all the viewer and the host (Amy mastura) drooling. hahaha

it's june!

pix by ~lokator

One of my resolutions this year is to update my blog as frequent as possible. But now, it's already June and still I am not writing as much as I wanted. (sigh!) For some of you that already know, i have lots of things running in mind and its always stay there. Some of them maybe have been forgotten. haha.

I have to admit that I AM a dreamer. And I always dream big. But it seems like the world did not return the favor yet. Maybe I do not done enough, but deep inside my heart I already know that I've tried my best in everything that I dream. Maybe it's not my time yet. The day will come someday. I believe that. Insyaallah.

drama

pix by: ~SelfTitledNightmare

Drama, drama and more drama! I hate drama! Can people just be nice to each other and forget all the drama that actually made by themselves? Haiya! Maybe life would be suck without all the drama, but I still hate it!

When 2 of your girl friends had a fight, u got stuck in the middle. Eventhough they tried to make sure that we're not involve in their drama, either we like it or not, we're ARE affected! O shit. I hate this. Please girls! grow up! Please stop calling other people friend-stealer, please stop hating other people, please forgive and try to forget and please quit from all the stupid drama. (U know who(s) u are, so faham-faham je la!)

Forgiveness is the best revenge. Plus, you girls have great memories together. Don't throw it away just like that. Your friendship worth more than that.