Tuesday, September 16, 2008

mémoires d'un frienship

Today, I am in the mood to write about a friend. A friendship. So, this is the story...

Amran is my best friend. Forever! 4 years ago, on today exact date, Amran pass away because of cancer. We're only 19 years old at that time. I am not going to tell the story about my sadness trough his cruel and silent death but this is a story about two best pal on earth.

Amran always there in some part of my heart. “Forever”, is my promise to him the moment I found out about his illness. He cried when I told him that I never will find a friend like him again. And for the record, I haven't. Yes, I have met other best friends like like Pijan, Airin, Ica, Farhan and Yusuf. But they are surely not Amran. What makes Am so special is, I never have to make any effort to be his best friend. Our friendship just flow as easy as the calming wind.

Throughout our friendship, we never have any major fight. But we do fight some times when I disagree on his terrible taste in music or when he judge my taste in girls (hahaha). But deep inside, even with the whole lots of differences, we're best friend. Am once said, “the differences that we have make us perfect as a friend. We complete each other”. I used to laugh when the first time I heard that. But now, I smile when I read the phrase again in his diary that he give to me a day before he leave this world.

Yes, in lots of way, he complete me as a person. He teach me about lots of thing when he is still around and even now, when he's not here, the lessons keep coming to me trough all the memories that we had.

Tomorrow, I'll spare some of my busy time to visit his grave. It's been a year since the last time I went there. But thank god, I never forget to recite some Al-fatihah for him whenever he came to my mind. I pray to God to never give me another best friend like Am just for the reason, I don't want to forget him. Al-Fatihah for all the peaceful soul. Amin.

Monday, September 1, 2008


Ramadhan is back! I always love Ramadhan. It's the month that I have to force myself to get in control in every aspect of life. Ramadhan is kinda the month that help me makes my life back to the particular 'right' line. Thank GOD for Ramadhan! Alhamdulillah...

This Ramadhan, I become a businessman. Hahaha! Not really a businessman, but I am going to help my aunt selling drinks and kueh mueh at Pasar Ramadhan. Today is my 1st day. Damn! It's tiring! But I am ok! huhuhu... I am happy when all the kueh that I make sold out today! If everyday going to be like today, I'm going to be rich this raya! hahaha!

For my ongoing life plan, I just applied to continue my studies at Universiti Malaya (UM) and Universiti Putra (UPM). I am confident I'll get in but... Is this what I really want? Sadly, I don't have the answer now.